Friends of a couple was always envious of them, especially when you like one of them. It was crucifixion for me to watch them running about me, having fun. Always invited to their date torment me. Eveytime, the smile of the girl would seem to be directed to you, but you know better. Their blissful look make me feel sour. My deepest secrets will be kept with me, till i die. My love for my friend's girlfriend seemed to be a sin. Tried many methods of trying to love other girls, but to no avail, maybe, I am not determined enough to forget her. Or maybe, I am not willling to forget her. Or maybe... I am just deceiving myself.


Couples usually have tiffs. She would come running to me, hugging me, crying on me. Trying to comfort her. Holding her tight, it seemed to be my best moments. But, it this right, am i supposed to feel happy about her having a tiff with my friend and came to me to seek comfort. It usually ended 2 - 3 days later, they would be back to their normal blissful selves. Or I should say, more closer then before. And I would shun away into the shadows, watching them, not knowing if I should feel happy for them, but I am definitely feeling forlon. This deepest secret shall be with me for ever..