* Sir Winston Churchill *
When you have to kill a man it costs nothing to be polite
Friday, February 04, 2005
At last, weekends are approaching together with Chinese New Year. But before that, I would need to survive throught the ordeal of my CCA. Enjoy was not the word to use now, stressful would be appropriate. Falling in with the squad would be seen as a bliss for me while some would want to come out and take the whole thing.
8.15 pm was the time that I reached home, tiredness overwhelmed me. How I yearned the day for me to pass out would come before I really pass out. I really want to be with the sec 1s whom I am supposed to be in charge of. However, from this situation, I would not be able to do so.
As the days pass by, the more I felt the stress from this CCA. Everytime during training, the stress would come down on you in such suddeness that you could not help but think that dying would be a good way out. No longer would you be optimistic in this situation. The most optimistic people could not survive through this ordeal let alone me.
Friday are no longer the weekend eve, where you could enjoy since homeworks can be put aside and be done on weekends. No more are the carefree days when we train, play, get scolded and do things as a squad. Dislike for this CCA grew strongly in me as trainings went by. Joining of this once superior CCA seems foolish to me now. Trying to be enthusiastic seems to be a stupid thing to do.
I am too tired to carry on with this CCA. How I hope that I could officially pass out. I am really grateful to those people that waited for me today till I finish the administration work that make me want to commit suicide, and thus going home late. I am really surprised how things changed so sharply this year.
No way I can enjoy this CCA like I used to now. And no way would I be optimistic with this CCA. If more of this comes along, committing suicide would come to my mind first and execution to that thought would follow within seconds.
The room that once seemed sacred and not allowed to be entered by us had changed to hell. I really cannot take this anymore. Lucky for me, next week, there would not be any CCA and enjoyment for the Chinese New Year would kick in but the week after next would definitely destroyed the whole happy feeling of Chinese New Year due to the hellish CCA.
8.15 pm was the time that I reached home, tiredness overwhelmed me. How I yearned the day for me to pass out would come before I really pass out. I really want to be with the sec 1s whom I am supposed to be in charge of. However, from this situation, I would not be able to do so.
As the days pass by, the more I felt the stress from this CCA. Everytime during training, the stress would come down on you in such suddeness that you could not help but think that dying would be a good way out. No longer would you be optimistic in this situation. The most optimistic people could not survive through this ordeal let alone me.
Friday are no longer the weekend eve, where you could enjoy since homeworks can be put aside and be done on weekends. No more are the carefree days when we train, play, get scolded and do things as a squad. Dislike for this CCA grew strongly in me as trainings went by. Joining of this once superior CCA seems foolish to me now. Trying to be enthusiastic seems to be a stupid thing to do.
I am too tired to carry on with this CCA. How I hope that I could officially pass out. I am really grateful to those people that waited for me today till I finish the administration work that make me want to commit suicide, and thus going home late. I am really surprised how things changed so sharply this year.
No way I can enjoy this CCA like I used to now. And no way would I be optimistic with this CCA. If more of this comes along, committing suicide would come to my mind first and execution to that thought would follow within seconds.
The room that once seemed sacred and not allowed to be entered by us had changed to hell. I really cannot take this anymore. Lucky for me, next week, there would not be any CCA and enjoyment for the Chinese New Year would kick in but the week after next would definitely destroyed the whole happy feeling of Chinese New Year due to the hellish CCA.
Battle won at 11:44 PM
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